Perseverance is in my BLOOD,so i have it in me and i will display it

Bury Your Humanity

2011-08-12T07:19:00.000-07:00

Its been more than a year since I've and I've decide to blog for fun though I know that not much of my peers would be reading my post.
Well, looking back at my past post really made me laugh ALOT! Looking at all the emotional and vulgar post , things that I couldn't believe that I've actually type them out.

Sec 4 this year is very tiring so far with N levels and stuff. I really regret slacking off last year as now it is so hard for me to get back on track and to discipline myself to take time off to study.But so far I think that things are going pretty smoothly.

Bury Your Humanity
To bury it deep within to the extend that no one can really see what're you thinking , how'd you feel.So that people won't have to worry about you.
Purity
To think and do only the right things so that you'll never lose focus in your goal.

These are the 2 goals I hope to achieve by the end of the year.
Dear Readers ,
I thank you for taking time off to read this post.

Your's sincerely,
Marcus

2010-07-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

Er.Fuck it?Sooo longgg since I last posted.Common test.Good luck guy?

Long Time Since I posted.

2010-06-30T15:37:00.001-07:00

Close to 3months since I last posted.And throughout these 3months,my life was ever changing and changing and changing.My character start sliding to a whole new side of attitude.I didn't like the whole process because people was always calling me emotional and stuff.But now I just thank God for this new Character in life which I am So in love with.It's very very COLD.So if you're reading this I suggest you leave me alone.

My phone is dead and I'll have to bring it back to live later on.

My relationship is also failing.

My Christian Walk with God is also stopping.

My compassion for people is totally gone.

I don't love as much anymore.

I'm starting to detest and hate.

Mostly an overflowing of arrogance has filled me up.

I'm super cold now.

I'll stop here.

Marcus who rocks with piano

2010-04-25T04:41:00.000-07:00

Hi guys Marcus here.it has been long since i posted.So ya.Yesterday had a awesome sermon by pastor chris long.Making the right choices.And the video is very very awesome by this drummer Marcus Xiong trying out piano for the first time.WITH EVERYTHING I WILL PRAISE THE LORD MY GOD IN ALL MY MIGHT AND MY STRENGTH BECAUSE I WAS MADE A SON OF GOD AND THAT I'M A PRINCE!!!! Prince.Elijah

2010-03-06T20:22:00.001-08:00

Even though I wanna die so badly . Just have to enjoy life till that time comes.
Don't know why yesterday The bible verse Deuteronomy 4:10 (Remember the day you stood before the LORD your God at Horeb, when he said to me, "Assemble the people before me to hear my words so that they may learn to revere me as long as they live in the land and may teach them to their children.") is in my head.This verse but i don't understand the meaning of it.Must have some reason i hope.

Later on going Malaysia Jb with my dad .I hope we can go Genting during march holidays.
good luck for your results.I hope I didn't die so badly

Elijah

2010-03-02T04:54:00.000-08:00

Don't want go school
Don't want go sec 4
Don't want study
Don't want wake up
Just wanna rest forever.

I believe death is the only way.
Purpose of life?I give up finding the purpose.

Now I know why no one was there when i needed help.It is because I didn't wanna help myself in the first place.Sighh.. I've screwed up my life.
I hope I die earlier.I've done my part.

No point praying when I DON'T want to help myself.No point coming to church no point in life.
Seriously.Don't go church = Not christian? WRONG !
Anti-Christ means you believe that there is a God and it is true.But you just hate him for his plans for you.

I hate.

2010-02-26T02:38:00.000-08:00

Today was a very fast day.This week fly pass damn fast.I hope it goes constantly till the end of time.If Laything/Fiona happens to see this...

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!!!

Recieved msg from Sean yesterday saying that this coming tuesday I will be leading and Jonathan will be playing the guitar.Wah I'm happy yet unhappy.I just hope Sean will be able to book the Hall then I can Play the drums . heheheheheheeee.Wonder what song to sing.Just have to pray and ask God.

Next friday is cross country...hmmm wonder what Jeslyn can motivate me to run...I KNOW
ALREADY . GG NUGGETS I'M SO GONNA WIN THIS SHYT!
Hmm lets see...Whose am I gonna vs
Got Paul,Melvyn,SiangSeng,BENARD,Syabil and Nicky i think.

Might lose to Syabil...Aim for atleast 3rd bah.
I REMEMBER WHAT Nicholas said the previous time we sat and talked.
"Just do your best and God will do the rest"

haha I will surely do my best.

Marcus

So I look to you
No one else will do

2010-02-23T06:33:00.000-08:00

Lancing half way.
Nice today able to play "eyes on me" for guitar sweets.Now go figure out the piano.

Wah "Elemental Dresses" for a band name.
1.Formal dress
2.Hip-hop
3.Home clothes (with sandals)(hinting to zy^^)
4.golf outfit
5.PUNK/JACKaSSS WOOHOOO

Lols today.Lan lan lan lan lan lan lan l4d l4dd l4d l4d l4dl 4d l4d guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep

2010-02-22T03:38:00.000-08:00

Wah today was lancing day ah?
eh boy , lancing ah?Want go lancing?

VERLI -No-ice

FARG YOU BIOTCH!
TIME TO COMPOSE A BLOODY SONG FOR YOU BIOTCH!

DIE LE I NVR DO MY WORK.

SERIOUSLY TIME TO FIND A SONG AND PERFORM IT IN YOU FARGGING FACE.

You suck.

2010-02-20T22:46:00.000-08:00

the girl of my dreams

The lady who shows me the word glamorous
And chuckles when i share some of my humor
The lady who sings a lullaby when I'm asleep
For a peaceful dream she believes in

When I rise the next morning
I see her at the balcony praising and worshiping the lord
She's there to calm me when I'm angry
She's there to listen and consul me when I need it

No one can replace her because she's most unlikely to be found.
Because if such a person exsist;She's not a human,She's an Angel.

2010-02-17T23:52:00.000-08:00

Things to do
1) find either a Drummer or a Vocalist
2)find a Basist
3)Learn the songs I need to learn (Lyrics / drum cover)
4)Work on my Accent
5)talk to her
6)work on my voice
7)think of a band name

cell meeting

2010-02-09T07:06:00.000-08:00

today had cell meeting today.Prayed and then played table tennis.went home dota.then now blogging.Nice one,today during cell meeting we have alot of new people. Ricky , Alex , Iris and Faith.More to come of course.haha so yeah.Someone tell me i look good in my suit.HHAA i'm so BHB.ok bye

2010-02-03T05:56:00.000-08:00

Bds cell(not all inside)
haha those crazy people

Today didn't go choir.
I feel so dry...
Don't know why...
Weeheee Can't wait for saturdays.

Anonymous : I feel happier when i'm in church
Anonymous(2):The people in church is very friendly
Anonymous(3):I feel relief when i'm in church.It just feels like my worries just washed away
Anonymous(4):I have to admit,I do treat coming to church as a CCA.But I will glady come to church as often because it delights the lord my God.

2010-02-02T05:03:00.000-08:00

Lord I just surrender everything to you.Grant me wisdom and knowledge tomorrow and I pray that things will just go smoothly lord.I was wrong to think "why bother praying when it is God's will already".So lord just come.Come and intervene , come and help me.I pray whatever I tell Marika that she will just be understanding enough and I'm doing it for you.Because you're my friend.Not any normal one , but one who knows what's best for me.i also pray for Bds cell to just grow grow and grow and that people there will just love you so much and will give praise and worship to you lord.So heavenly father i just uplift everything into your hands,I give thanks in jesus name

Amen

Elijah

2010-01-30T18:34:00.000-08:00

I'm glad many liked the flyer trip yesterday.Old testement walktrhu was kinda boring.but i did learn something from it.Isn't Elijah a very very nice name?Of course it is!

Bloody pissed off

2010-01-27T06:49:00.000-08:00

i duuno what they want but my mum dont want me to go for BIND programme.I really wanted to tear that piece of paper when she didnt allow.What else...My dad is like giving attitude and is so tempting me to do stupid things again.God go do what you want k?Whether i want or not i have to get through it.make it swift thanks.

Nice song(JaP)

2010-01-24T03:15:00.000-08:00

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata wa
Doko de nani wo shiteiru no darou

Juugo no boku ni wa dare ni mo hanasenai
Nayami no kanae ga aru no desu

Mirai no jibun ni atete kaku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchiake rareru darou

Ima makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shika nai kono mune ga nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru
Ima wo ikiteiru

Haikei arigatou juugo no anata ni
Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu
Jibun to wa nani de doko e mukau beki ka
Toitsu dzukereeba mietekuru

Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishibe e to yume no fune yo susume

Ima makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiaru keba ii no?
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite
Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai ima ikiteiru

Jinsei no subete ni imi ga aru kara
Osorezu ni anata no yume wo sodatete
La la la, la la la, la la la
Keep on believing
La la la, la la la, la la la
Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing

Makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo shinji arukeba ii no?
Aa Makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiarukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai mo kanashimi mo
Sakete wa torenai keredo
Egao wo misete ima wo ikite yukou
Ima wo ikite yukou

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata ga
Shiawase na koto wo negaimasu..

ENGLISH

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who's 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone

If it's a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself

Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You'll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt
But I'm living the bittersweet present

There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we're in
There's no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness...

Better now.

2010-01-21T02:38:00.001-08:00

Today school was alright as usual.After school went to jamming studio myself cause the rest either can't or don't want.Went there,used the blessed room.Then started playing songs.Then suddenly Bronson came.Watched me drum awhile then started teaching me a little bit of drumming.
He's the most gayboy i ever seen.Then he gave me the honor to do the lucky draw and made me do the calling.HELD ME BACK AS I WANNA GO HOME ASAP!I picked GuoRui for the prize on purpose and jonathan's randomly. ahhaaa what a gayday.
Bye

It's raining

2010-01-20T04:50:00.000-08:00

Satan I saw your intentions.Stay away,stay far far away!

It's "raining" so heavily.No shelter , in fact greater pain is round the corner.War is at my doorstep and It will start damn soon.

Satan! I won't allow you to tare my family apart.Get off.

Wouldn't it be nicer if life was just clean and green.Full of purity and no poverty.

Many asked " who will be there when I'm down " or " when i need help"

I'm telling you that no one was there for me when i was down and needed help.

It's raining and many would be asking or sharing their umbrellas.

NO one was there.

God i know you were there but you just stood there and let your Divine plan(god's will) go...

TING XIEEE

2010-01-19T03:53:00.000-08:00

Thank you for today,you made me decide to do something.
Thanks so much

Farewell Cp

2010-01-18T02:08:00.001-08:00

Farewell to dearest Yang.You've been a very kind and helpful person.You're worthy of my trust and you never failed.Bye and bless you so so much.Stay cool in Perth and tell your new friends what a great friend i am ^^.Nah joking

Today was alright once again.Went to Yang's house played hide and seek and just spend time with him.Looking forward to this sat PL outing.Look what God has done to our Bds cell group.

SVB VEZ , R WFMML DSZG'H TLMMZ SZKKVM GLNLIILD YFG OVGH GIB LFG
Paul if you see this tell this to the correct person

Solitude is still my favourite word.

2010-01-15T04:06:00.000-08:00

Today was alright.I became the PL "Dm" ahaha.I'm starting to adjust into my new class enviroment.2weeks have past and i think this class has alot of problems.I don't know why God has set me in that class but still i will have to go to that class.Trying my very best to be consistent in doing my work.I'm getting the hang of it and i hope i can carry on this way.I don't miss my buddies from last year cuz i do get to see them here and there and i think it's rather fair enough

Should I or should i not.Paul decide for me please?

Whenever sang my songs , wishing they would be heard